Busy Weekend

Just spent a crazy weekend..

peed at by a student and forgot my phone
having big dinner with 40-50 colleagues at an indian buffet restaurant
listening to jazz at regent hotel
shuttling between homes and drinking chicken soup at midnight
gym
meeting friends
shopping at ikea
more shuttling between homes
good friend's baby 1st month celebrations
meeting more babies and more kids
looking for chinese new year goodies
more shuttling between homes and dinner

That's not to mentioned that there are tons of other things which i am supposed to do and have not yet..

spring cleaning
decoration for cny
visiting in laws
buying groceries
baking cookies
calling and meeting up with contractor to make cushions
planning my training materials for two up coming workshop (one of which is in mandarin)

I realized... weekends don't exist anymore for me.

What's to be...

More and more, I began to fear what it would be for me.
About wanting something and in the end having to accept that it is not mine to have.
Ultimately facing a possibility which i have till now, never quite considered.
My fear immense and at times, loneliness at feeling this on my own drives me to tears in the middle of a crowded place.

Laisan's Last Day

Today's Laisan's last day at work...
hate to say it but.. man, time really passes damn fast.

Think she got quite a bit of presents and a really scrumptious (at least i think so) farewell lunch on tuesday and of course, quite a bit of sabo today too. She had paints dunked on her head by the teachers and the therapists didn't let up when we caught her unaware with pails of water (spiked with gold dust) near the cabins by tricking her there.

All in all, plenty of good fun and some of us had to get wet along with her. One could tell how people really liked her because of all the 'attention' she has gotten, and also how people have thought of her as a good sport because of the tricks they played. Afterall, people would have second thoughts if they think that the person they are 'sabo-ing' cannot 'take' the joke. I think Laisan should be really happy with herself at her first job, with the kind of impression she had made upon the people here.

Anyways, it is always goodbyes here these days... and that's sort of depressing. So allow me to make a positive note to Laisan at the end of this..

Hello to new experiences
Hello to broader horizons
Hello to higher aspirations
and
Hello to a new beginning

New Year 2008

Spent new year's eve and new year in the company of friends. Held two little gatherings and tried my hand at making some edible food. Must say that my lasagna and 'le orange' red sausages with white wine stew (erm.. own concoction) didn't turn out too badly...

My new year wishes for 2008...

What i want is have another chance to soar through the clouds again.
Even if metaphorically.

I want to do something crazy and daring while i am still able to control my own fear before it starts to control me. It seems to do that as age catches on. I believe it has something to do with the impeding knowledge of one's mortality. Well, before that day comes, i hope to try more stuff that challenges those fears.

I hope 2008 will be a year of changes and chances for me. A chance for adventure, a change from the mundane. I know that it will only be possible if i make the change myself and i hope that this is something which i will not fail to do.

Wishing all, a happy new year and the beauty of living.